Stop It

I came across this quote today, and I thought it very fitting for what things have been like lately...

I love how simple and true this is. Just stop the hate. But somehow we find it harder to do. We as human beings need to remember that we are all facing our battles, we all have things testing us. We need to remember that we don't know everything the others around us are going through and to give them the benefit of the doubt. Everyone needs kindness. 

It's a simple math equation if you think about it..

X + Y = Z

HATE + SITUATION = MORE HATE

LOVE + SITUATION = MORE LOVE

...And if you think about it from a point of view where others are tearing you down, obviously you can't control what others do or how they act. In that situation I would use this equation:

HATE + LOVE = OVERCOMING HATE

So now when I hear talk starting or any type of negativity being spread, this will be the face that pops up in my head:

New Music Lately

Last night Jon and I went up to Park City to hang out and catch some good, old-fashioned live music. We used to go to smaller more intimate venues all the time, so it was great to revisit the uncrowded feel of being up close and personal with new artists.

Music Is Life

One of them that I was impressed with is New City Skyline. They have a fresh feel. Check them out, I have a feeling their going to get big. They remind me of early lifehouse with a touch of cartel. Usually not my first picks, but it was still refreshing.

And of course, I have to mention the Lumineers. No I did not see them in Park City last night, but we did pick up their album (like I've been planning on for too long) so we had something to listen to while driving around. They have some hits like "Ho Hey". Sweet Mountain Music.

A Dash of Mint

I really appreciate interior design. It's one of my favorite things to explore. When I was younger, I rearranged my bedroom about 5 times a month. I would buy my own bedding and decorations. I would tear up and create my own bed canopies and make my own art installations with my bikes.

Sometimes when I am bored I look up creative ideas and color palates. Lately I am just LOVING mint green. I love how fresh and new I feel when I'm surrounded by it.

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 Don't you love the mint with coral and blue/grey? GORGEOUS!

 I ABSOLUTELY love ruffles. They are so feminine and light. This would make a great set of curtains or a throw blanket :)

I love the mixture of GOLD and mint with a touch of warm brown. PRETTY!

Aren't these doors AMAZING?!? I love how intricate they are, and of course the color.

 Ugh, I love it. so fresh and clean :)

Happy Things

Here are a few things I've been obsessing over...

This thought:

An oversized skull  sweater:

This "Tea" Rex. I bought him. His name is Reptar :)

Francesca's Boutique

These drumstick pencils for the husband. He's always drumming...

Francesca's Boutique

Pastel lacey cheeky panties for nights in :)

Victoria's Secret PINK

This UHHHH-MAZING tea. It's Mate with cocoa and nuts. Heaven!!!

Mate Vana at Teavana

This "I love mustache" sweater <3

Forever21

This OWL design 

These adorable SHOES!!!

bookLOVE

Let's be honest. I'm a real introvert. I force myself to be more outgoing. Friends at work act as if I'm lying when I tell them I'm truly an introvert. But it's true.

You see, my favorite "me time" is a hot bubble bath and a good book. Sometimes cuddling with my kitty. Like I said. INTROVERT.

Lately I'm reading a series that I'm embarrassed to admit to. I'll just call it brain candy. Because even though I understand there is no real substance that makes me rethink life or philosophy, it still sweeps me away into a story.

But even though these stories sweep me away, a little piece of them will always be apart of me. The characters that I relate to teach me how I want to treat people, what hobbies I may want to adopt, the type of person I want to be. 

I remember my first favorite book that I re-read over and over again when I was in 1st grade. It was "Matilda" by Roald Dahl. He became my favorite author and I went on to collect his books. The imagination put into his books taught me from a very young age that nothing is impossible. 

I truly, madly, DEEPLY LOVE books :).

If you ever feel like the world is too much to take on.... open a book and escape for awhile.

Something Beautiful

I think I've found my breakthrough.. I was thinking to myself how I really had nothing to say for a post today. I had no words. I felt no inspiration and all too much inspiration at once.

Impossible, you might say? Well It felt like sensory and art overload. I have been soaking up things that inspire me like a sponge, but I keep knocking myself down because I somehow feel I'm not capable of creating and giving that inspiration to others...

And then it hit me: I just want to create something beautiful.

And I'm officially going back to school in summer. I'm so excited! I find confidence when I feel like I know what I'm doing and I think that's the rut I've been finding myself in when it comes to art, design, creation. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. Now I can use the expertise of professors, and have clear intention behind what it is that I wish to create.

I'm not going to tell you my major yet. This is a discovery process and it will come in due time. But I do have direction and purpose now.

So just sit tight little lovely.

The sun is about to shine much brighter ;-)

Doodles

I remember when I was in school when I would just doodle my name in all sorts of fonts. I bought a few blank moleskins and started doodling again today. Since I've had trouble with writing I figured I'd doodle it out...

Then I figured I would play with different quotes. Eventually I'll add color.

I guess I'm looking for a breakthrough. I can feel it's going to happen soon.

Brave

So the other day I was kind of having a weird "What-am-I-doing-with-my-life?" crisis. I've been sort of anxiety ridden since.

I've been making a list in my head of my fears, hoping I'll find the root of what's really going on in my head. I know some people are scared of being successful.. To those people I say,

"Really? That's what you're afraid of??? Cry me a river..."

I could make a list for you of what's scaring me:

• I'm scared of failing. Being completely horrible at whatever I want to be good at.
• I'm scared of being lied to, continuing through life with people around me that don't tell me the truth.
• I'm scared of trusting people for the above reason and fear.
• I'm scared of being fat (hey, I'm still a girl)
• I'm scared of not going anywhere in my life, working a dead end job.

But in the end I'm still just standing still.. where do I go from here?

I normally don't go on whining. I do have a plan in place and I do have things in the works. I am still scared, but I need to try.

Just out of sheer comfort seeking tendencies, I think I'll watch Brave tonight. I love her. She's wild and crazy and she reminds me of my younger self when I used to race against the boys... and beat them :).

I miss the feeling I used to get when I felt fierce. When I felt confident and I felt unstoppable. I've always been determined, stubborn, and hard working. It's worked and it's gotten me to survive through the hardest times. I feel like the disconnect happened since that determination wasn't fueled towards something I was passionate about.

Now I ask myself, If I could change my fate... would I?